Trial and Testing!
other way for each of us to enter the Kingdom of God.
I think it was Smith Wigglesworth who
famously stated that ďgreat faith is the product of great fightsĒ Ė and can
only be. You canít have deep faith without depth in other ways. The only way
up is actually down. I hope you understand what I mean.
Jesus had to remind the disciples of this
truism on more than one occasion (Matt 18:1-4). They were seeking for self,
even three years after Jesus called them. They were hankering after
elevation and consumed with vain notions. It was folly, based on pride.
The ego doesnít die easily nor willingly. It
has to be crushed. Thatís why Jesus once lambasted Peter:
Get behind Me, Satan! You are an offence to
Me, for you are not mindful of the things of God, but the things of men
And why He declared:
Whoever falls on this Stone
will be broken; but on whomever it falls, it will grind him to powder!
Neither option is pleasant, and the former
is not easy for most to accept. Paul reminded Jesusí followers back then:
[go] through many tribulations [to] enter the
kingdom of God (Acts 14:22).
Some Purposes of Trials
After his conversion, Peter was zealous for
the things of God. He had been mortified by the way he disowned Jesus in His
last hours. Peter never thought he would stoop so low. He openly declared
his sinfulness, but he didnít think he would ever deny Jesus!
God allowed it to occur to humble him. Peter
was cocky, able, and self-reliant. But the memory of what he did was with
him for the rest of his days, keeping him humble.
From that fateful crowing of the cockerel
until he died upside down on a cross (because he said he was not worthy to
be crucified like his Lord and Master), he knew he had nothing within
himself to glory about. His only glory became Jesus.
Building Reliance Upon God
Peter wrote much about suffering and trial
in his first letter.
Beloved, do not think it strange concerning
the fiery trial which is to try you, as though some strange thing happened
to you (1 Pet 3:12).
Notice in his words that trials are not
optional. We have to expect them and face them solidly.
How can we do that? By putting our trust
completely in God.
Human nature is a peculiar thing. The ego
insists on being its own boss. And yet that very proclivity is our worst
enemy! Self-reliance is a sin. It is idolatry.
By relying upon yourself, you place in prime
position something other than God. You are breaking the first commandment.
And idolatry shuts the door of the Spirit to you. You shut out Godís power,
Godís love and mercy, and all the divine attributes which He offers you so
We all have to choose.
Most Christians choose God with provisos.
They donít want Him unreservedly. They want Him at armís length. They want
the good things He offers, but not with the complete commitment He asks from
Too many want to hang on to their control
over their lives. They want to be boss, not God. Their self-reliance is
accompanied by self-will, self-assertion and self-determination. But like
the prefix says, itís not of God; itís all of self.
You canít be a true Christian with that
So, what happens to bring you to heel? What
does God allow? You can read the catalogue of curses which are possible in
Deuteronomy 28. They can...
...come upon you and pursue and overtake
you, until you are destroyed, because you did not obey the voice of the Lord
your God, to keep His commandments and His statutes... (Deut 28:45).
God doesnít want to destroy YOU. He wants to
destroy your ego Ė your pride, your self-reliance.
Faith is the assurance you have in God. It
is strong trust in Him. It is knowing His love for you, that He knows best
and that what He says IS best.
When God asked Abraham to sacrifice the only
son of his dear wife Sarah Ė his heir and the one who would continue
Abrahamís worth in the world Ė the amazing response was not an argument.
Abraham just rose up early and went to fulfil what God said.
From Abrahamís perspective, he thought Isaac
would be dead in three daysí time. He didnít know Godís plan, and what He
would do at the last minute. Thatís the only way God can build faith in you.
If you knew the outcome beforehand, that vital ingredient would not be
produced in your character.
God was asking Abraham to give up the most
important thing in his life. And so He will with you. Heíll take you to the
wall before He will deliver you! Just like He took that patriarch of old. He
tests your faith in Him.
Whatever takes the place of God in your
life; whatever you put your trust in Ė even if itís only some of your
trust Ė like money, self-worth, friends, family, etc., He will require you
to be willing to give it up first. Only after you prove your faithfulness to
God in all those respects will he give you the desires of your heart (Ps
No man can serve two masters (Matt 6:24).
The problem with most folks is that they canít see their divided loyalties.
They canít see where the world has a hold over them through the lure of
fleshly desires Ė sometimes seemingly innocuous.
ďWhatís wrong with working for money? We all
have to do that in this worldĒ some people say. They canít see the money
idol they are bowing down to.
If the money god has a hold over you, God
will take away most or all of your money until you learn to worship Him
instead of your wealth.
Then thereís a career, or pleasure-seeking,
or hobbies, or family loyalties. If any of these things take centre stage,
so that you compromise your worship of God as a result, you can bet your
last dollar that God will test you over it. He asks you to give it up. If
you wonít do that willingly, like Abraham, Heíll take it away.
ANYTHING that stands in the way of Him and
you, preventing you enjoying the spiritual riches He wants to share with
you, He will remove it.
For Laodiceans, God requires them to die.
Not because God is vindictive, bloodthirsty, or malicious. But because itís
the only time they will surrender fully to Him. Does He have to take your
life so that He can give you His for eternity? Or will you voluntarily
accept what He so freely and lovingly offers?
Some people are wishy-washy. They flip-flop
one way, then another.
I remember talking with a lady who needed to
put her complete trust in God to heal her. She could if she would. But would
She KNEW God heals, but would she let Him?
No. Helena and I talked with her one day. The next day she went to see a
doctor Ďfor another opinioní. And, rather than listen to the Spirit, and put
her trust implicitly in God, she let a doctor talk her out of it. She agreed
to have an operation instead.
She was double-minded, and James reminds us
that if we are that way, we wonít receive anything we need from God! (Jas
1:7-8.) We are doubting Godís goodness. That is a huge insult to hurl at
Him! No wonder God says He hates it! (Ps 119:113.)
She had the operation, but it didnít solve
her discomfort like the doctor promised. Instead, it created more problems,
and her discomfort increased. God was letting her eat the fruit of her own
She wouldnít put up with the discomfort
while she waited for God to demonstrate His love for her through healing. So
He let her put up with what she had chosen, disregarding His advice.
It sounds cruel, but God is not cruel. He is
stern, but not cruel. It was the only way for her to learn.
Enduring through troubles, difficulties,
pain and suffering is often necessary for us to develop the quality of being
steadfast. God loves those who are.
If you want to be used by God in His Work,
itís a vital quality to have.
Therefore, my beloved brethren, be
steadfast, immovable, always abounding in the work of the Lord, knowing that
your labour is not in vain in the Lord (1 Cor 15:58).
Developing Patience or Endurance
Paul exhorted the young evangelist Timothy:
You therefore, my son, be strong in the
grace that is in Christ Jesus.
And the things that you have heard from me
among many witnesses, commit these to faithful men who will be able to teach
You therefore must endure hardship as a good
soldier of Jesus Christ (2 Tim 2:1-3).
If you have to work hard to achieve
something in life, you value more what you worked for than if it were given
to you Ďon a plateí. The effort you are prepared to put out, and the
suffering you are prepared to endure, tell a big story. They show how much
you really value what you are working for.
We canít fully understand all that God
requires of us or why. But in those words to Timothy above, he was inspired
to say that we MUST endure hardship. Itís necessary for our development.
Perhaps for the reason I have stated.
We demonstrate how much we really love God
and value what He is offering to us. Psalm 16:11 says:
You will show me the path of life. In Your
presence is fulness of joy. At Your right hand are pleasures evermore.
The human mind cannot fully grasp the
wonders of God and the bliss to be in His presence. Those words do not do
justice to the experience. Visionary experiences like those which we have
reproduced in The Visions of Sundar Singh or Contemporary
Revelations try to put such sublime things in words, but words can never
really express the intensity of such joy.
Paul had seen the wonders of heaven, and was
forbidden to tell of all he saw and heard (2 Cor 12:4). Perhaps that was
what helped him to endure! If you think your lot in life is bad, read what
he went through! (2 Cor 6:4-10; 11:23-29, and 4:8-12.) He called them light
and momentary troubles!
For our light and momentary troubles are
achieving for us an eternal glory that far outweighs them all. So we fix our
eyes not on what is seen, but on what is unseen. For what is seen is
temporary, but what is unseen is eternal (2 Cor 4:17,18, NIV).
Malcolm B Heap,